Even though I’m weak, tired and somewhat lonely – remember who you are, and that I need you to hold me Even though this life, goes by, and wont stop running – remember that I’m waiting, hoping you’re still coming And even though it takes too long for me to tell you – remember only you can give me all that I need you to When fighting for our lives feels like it happens to us daily – I know that you’re the one who always somehow seems to save me As much as I might like to pretend, that I have it in myself to end, all the chaos, crazy fear, in my heart, between my ears I need you. I just need you. Its made clearer every day, what you make stronger is hard to say Its deep inside, without a name, and only you can stoke this flame Keep on breathing, being, staying here with me and babe, remember, please I need you. I just need you More today than yesterday, or at least than what I knew More tomorrow than today, I’m sure I’ll find that to be true And when all is said and done, I’ll be so
A blank page calls to me
Tell a story
Daunting
Scary
Recall a memory
Or more than a few
Of 20 years
All spent with you
A lifetime began
Origins elude
The middle filled
With all we’d do
A generation
Brought in tow
Life redefines
What it means to grow
And laugh and cry and toil and tear
Our pain, our joy, our hope, our fear
It’s ours – yours, mine
It’s ours to own
Together
Started
20 years ago
“I love you” seem such empty words
“I love you” at times has seemed absurd
“I love you” though true, can seem too easy
“I need you” is the feeling deep within me
“I want youR
I wish my heart was whole
To love you like you need
And had been all along
I wish I’d been a man
The kind to sweep you off your feet
The kind that never did you wrong
I wish your heart could feel no pain
By wishing time and time again
That hurting you was not the choice
I wish my love for you was bold
And screamed its truth with every look
With loud and never-ending voice
I wish, and dare to maybe hope
That we can dream and reach new heights
And live in love and safety too
Do I dare to hope we’ll see
A time when we both make the team
Undone by anything we do
I want to love you far beyond
What could be written in a song
Another song about a broken heart was not what I meant to write
But knowing yours breaks again, I hope this gets you through tonight
Every time I come home and find you one more time crying on the floor
I wonder how my lucks held out this long and I go a little more crazy than before
I hurt you bad, but not for good as time strips away at pain I caused
I take the blame and so I should while regret grows over time I lost
Hearing you cry while you shake in my arms could break my heart in two
I’d give it all to hold you close while every little thing drains from deep in you
I can’t find the words to say I love you
The way you ne
Self-assured with peace to spare
I will wait, wait, and find that for which I search
Un-repressed and made for growth
Beauty sits, stays, upon this grassy surf
Out of place or seemingly
Maybe strength, calm, comes to those like me
Sun breaks through and over waves
Of earthly, grounded, green swept seas
And reveals
A maiden out of water
All roots run deep
As leaves surround earths daughter
Balanced perfectly
Am I the sum of my totals, or the total of my sums?
Am I the name that you call me - wife, daughter, friend, mom?
Is it the dancer that makes me? Or the Maker that dances above?
At the way that He made me. Am I defined by that love?
Am I the way that my body can stretch, twist and turn?
Reach over, reach under, reach around till it burns?
Am I the singer that cries during life's hardest songs?
The intercessor rejoicing at life's battles won?
Was I put here to do these? Is this all that I do?
Do these things that I'm doing define purpose too?
Am I a giver of life to all that I see?
Does what I do really matter to anyone, to m
I love you large
I love you lots
I wonder much
About your thoughts
Are they mundane like mine can be
Are they of life or you and me
Are they of things we’ve done outside
And times you chose you wouldn’t hide
Or maybe fights we seem to have
Over those things that make you sad
A bitter pill, a better choice
To listen to a truthful voice
I love you lots
Sometimes too small
Each time with you
I want to love them all
The day is beautiful, as are you
It hints at hope, my thoughts do too
Sometimes the sun does run and hide,
A fleeting visit, teasing skies
Like that stars existence seems to cease
So seems our joy, our strength, our peace
Although in time stars fade and wane
Our peace will grow, what fades is pain
The sun returns, not gone for good
But if it were, its understood:
We're like the light, no end, undying
What will burn out? - your tears, your crying
I woke up beside you again today
Just like the day before
Seems like forever that I’ve been doing that
I hope forevermore
You’re still right there when I reach for you
I feel you while I sleep
I dream of times when I’ll look back
Amazed you’re mine to keep
Your slow rise breath, your golden skin
The things I’d like to do
My mind does race, a fevered pace
To meet you through and through
I don’t take for granted where I woke up today
Or think that its deserved
With gratitude and satisfied
Your love for me remains absurd
Even though I’m weak, tired and somewhat lonely – remember who you are, and that I need you to hold me Even though this life, goes by, and wont stop running – remember that I’m waiting, hoping you’re still coming And even though it takes too long for me to tell you – remember only you can give me all that I need you to When fighting for our lives feels like it happens to us daily – I know that you’re the one who always somehow seems to save me As much as I might like to pretend, that I have it in myself to end, all the chaos, crazy fear, in my heart, between my ears I need you. I just need you. Its made clearer every day, what you make stronger is hard to say Its deep inside, without a name, and only you can stoke this flame Keep on breathing, being, staying here with me and babe, remember, please I need you. I just need you More today than yesterday, or at least than what I knew More tomorrow than today, I’m sure I’ll find that to be true And when all is said and done, I’ll be so
A blank page calls to me
Tell a story
Daunting
Scary
Recall a memory
Or more than a few
Of 20 years
All spent with you
A lifetime began
Origins elude
The middle filled
With all we’d do
A generation
Brought in tow
Life redefines
What it means to grow
And laugh and cry and toil and tear
Our pain, our joy, our hope, our fear
It’s ours – yours, mine
It’s ours to own
Together
Started
20 years ago
“I love you” seem such empty words
“I love you” at times has seemed absurd
“I love you” though true, can seem too easy
“I need you” is the feeling deep within me
“I want youR
I wish my heart was whole
To love you like you need
And had been all along
I wish I’d been a man
The kind to sweep you off your feet
The kind that never did you wrong
I wish your heart could feel no pain
By wishing time and time again
That hurting you was not the choice
I wish my love for you was bold
And screamed its truth with every look
With loud and never-ending voice
I wish, and dare to maybe hope
That we can dream and reach new heights
And live in love and safety too
Do I dare to hope we’ll see
A time when we both make the team
Undone by anything we do
I want to love you far beyond
What could be written in a song
Another song about a broken heart was not what I meant to write
But knowing yours breaks again, I hope this gets you through tonight
Every time I come home and find you one more time crying on the floor
I wonder how my lucks held out this long and I go a little more crazy than before
I hurt you bad, but not for good as time strips away at pain I caused
I take the blame and so I should while regret grows over time I lost
Hearing you cry while you shake in my arms could break my heart in two
I’d give it all to hold you close while every little thing drains from deep in you
I can’t find the words to say I love you
The way you ne
Self-assured with peace to spare
I will wait, wait, and find that for which I search
Un-repressed and made for growth
Beauty sits, stays, upon this grassy surf
Out of place or seemingly
Maybe strength, calm, comes to those like me
Sun breaks through and over waves
Of earthly, grounded, green swept seas
And reveals
A maiden out of water
All roots run deep
As leaves surround earths daughter
Balanced perfectly
Am I the sum of my totals, or the total of my sums?
Am I the name that you call me - wife, daughter, friend, mom?
Is it the dancer that makes me? Or the Maker that dances above?
At the way that He made me. Am I defined by that love?
Am I the way that my body can stretch, twist and turn?
Reach over, reach under, reach around till it burns?
Am I the singer that cries during life's hardest songs?
The intercessor rejoicing at life's battles won?
Was I put here to do these? Is this all that I do?
Do these things that I'm doing define purpose too?
Am I a giver of life to all that I see?
Does what I do really matter to anyone, to m
I love you large
I love you lots
I wonder much
About your thoughts
Are they mundane like mine can be
Are they of life or you and me
Are they of things we’ve done outside
And times you chose you wouldn’t hide
Or maybe fights we seem to have
Over those things that make you sad
A bitter pill, a better choice
To listen to a truthful voice
I love you lots
Sometimes too small
Each time with you
I want to love them all
The day is beautiful, as are you
It hints at hope, my thoughts do too
Sometimes the sun does run and hide,
A fleeting visit, teasing skies
Like that stars existence seems to cease
So seems our joy, our strength, our peace
Although in time stars fade and wane
Our peace will grow, what fades is pain
The sun returns, not gone for good
But if it were, its understood:
We're like the light, no end, undying
What will burn out? - your tears, your crying
I woke up beside you again today
Just like the day before
Seems like forever that I’ve been doing that
I hope forevermore
You’re still right there when I reach for you
I feel you while I sleep
I dream of times when I’ll look back
Amazed you’re mine to keep
Your slow rise breath, your golden skin
The things I’d like to do
My mind does race, a fevered pace
To meet you through and through
I don’t take for granted where I woke up today
Or think that its deserved
With gratitude and satisfied
Your love for me remains absurd
You
Are something good
The best
Ive ever had
Or could
If you don't know
I see
None to blame
Just me
Or that I think
Of you
I should
Say
YOU...something good
I smell
You
While I type
You
Are my type
I write
To tell
You...something good
In sight, I feel
Beside me
Real
True
Something so good
You
Self-assured with peace to spare
I will wait, wait, and find that for which I search
Un-repressed and made for growth
Beauty sits, stays, upon this grassy surf
Out of place or seemingly
Maybe strength, calm, comes to those like me
Sun breaks through and over waves
Of earthly, grounded, green swept seas
And reveals
A maiden out of water
All roots run deep
As leaves surround earths daughter
Balanced perfectly
I want to hold you close, slip in behind you
Hear you breath and watch your chest move
Taste your neck and smell your hair
Close my eyes and linger there
I'd let you sleep a while longer
Desire for you growing stronger
Can I wake you with a kiss?
Leave a smile upon your lips
Make a song up on the spot
And sing to you my every thought
About my wife of whom it pains me
To consider her heart breaking
And of my only ever lover
Cherish, value and always honor
As I write I see you sleeping
I'm one part happy, the other grieving
For far too long you've been alone
Again tonight wish I was home
I'll never leave you in word or deed